happyversary to meeeeeeeee :)

celebrating 3 years with the love of my life today... i feel like a pretty lucky girl :)

also, i quite wish he was here to celebrate WITH me, but we did some of that last weekend and we'll do some more next weekend when he's here for graduation :)

in the meantime, i'll have to be content with my tiffany's love notes ring, and a present i ordered for myself yesterday in anticipation of all the traveling i'll be doing this summer:

Vera Bradley Hanging Organizer in Watercolor

Vera Bradley Mini Hanging Organizer in Watercolor

Not really into Vera anymore, but I saw this pattern and really fell in love with it. I think it is beautiful, and if it came in a dress, I'd be all over that :p Lately, I feel like i'm carrying around soooooo many bottles of pills and stuff that I need a little extra help keeping my stuff organized. Well, you saw the four bottles of stuff I picked up last time I went to the health food store, so you have an idea too.... :p I'm planning to use the mini size one in my carry-on when we're in London this summer, so I'll probably put my makeup, prescription meds, eyeglasses, and some spare contacts in there, and toss things like shampoo/deodorant/lotion/toothpaste into the big one and toss it in my suitcase. I like feeling organized, and maybe it will keep me from overpacking... hah :p

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finals study stash!

after a day of hilarious comments and somewhat unproductive studying with david and susie, susie and i dragged ourselves out to ellwood's so i could pick up some hippie medicine... which in theory i shouldn't need it since i have a prescription for ambien (i'm looking at you, caremark) - but am keeping fingers crossed that it works. i picked up some melatonin and coffea cruda, which are supposed to help with insomnia, phosphoric acid to help with "poor concentration due to overwork," and a mental alertness blend with lots of brainfood and memory enhancers. sorta like herbal adderall, i guess, but we'll see how good it is tomorrow! you may have noticed something there that's not a drug, but a little present to meeeeeeeee. rough week. pacifica candles smell fantastic, so i thought i'd try their perfumes. lotus garden smells AMAZING, and the little roll on bottle is precious. i should probably stop buying perfume for a while, but i love smelling good and i get bored quickly...

also check out my sweet leopard print nails. they're those sally hansen salon effects strips (which are really just strips of polish you peel off the sheet and press on to your nails) and i've had them on for over a week. if i do say so myself, they look pretty great still. it's getting time to take them off because i've got a little bit of growth by the cuticle, but i did my toes at the same time i did my fingers and they're in even better shape. winning.
i'm going to go take the maximum dose of melatonin and hopefully conk out. currently celebrating the idea that i just might be able to sleep more than 2 hours tonight. hallelujah! fingers crossed that i won't be updating at 6am again, or watching the clock roll over to 7 before drifting off to sleep... insomnia has turned me into a useless human being. i wanted to take a final tomorrow but i was so exhausted all day that nothing sunk in. i may be reduced to taking two on monday instead and then my 8 hour one on thursday.
isn't law school fun? :p

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GRRRRRRRRRRR.

this is how i feel right now:

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fixed!

thank goodness for the student health center. and still a big f you to my insurance company!

food porn

the lovely susie is over right now, and in true jen and susie tradition, we made food and took photos. look at our brain food spread!! garlic and herb goat cheese, pepperoni, cucumbers, wheat thins, and townhouse crackers below:

and here you can see everything, including hummus, tortilla and pita chips, and the FANTASTIC red pepper/gorgonzola dip that we whipped up:

you can find the recipe for the red pepper and gorgonzola dip here. it is super easy to whip up! we used half sour cream and half mayo, fresh parsley, and jarred roasted red peppers from the italian food section. it is so fresh tasting and is delicious with cucumber slices :) i also got some cherry tomatoes to dip in it, and i'm sure they'll be super yummy too.

i have been in a terrible mood all day because my insurance company is refusing to let me fill prescriptions in store and wants me to do them by mail order... which would have been fine, if they told me that more than 3 days before i run out of my prescription. instead, i had to find out through my pharmacy, and the sweet pharmacist who has been running interference between me and the insurance company had to tell me. she's wonderful and doing what she can, but even she can't override the system. sucks. big. time. and now i have to take time out of my busy finals studying schedule to go to the doctor to see if i can get a whole new prescription so i can take it directly to cvs and they can stop being such dicks about it. fml.

hanging out with sus is def. cheering me up though (love you snusan!!!) :) :) :)

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Chernobyl - 25th anniversary (via BBC).

d'oh

i spent hours last night making important decisions on which items to buy on amazon, only to realize today that i accidentally had them shipped to my default shipping address/billing address, which is my parents' address. i wish i could say that this is the first time it happened, but it's more like the 10th. at least i'm seeing my parents in about ten days, so i might get my stuff then, but after i realized i was an idiot about it, i frantically emailed each amazon seller. hopefully, i'll catch all the ones that haven't shipped my various order parts yet and they'll be able to ship to the correct place, i'm not keeping my hopes up.

i ordered these cool looking sleep aid patches from natural patches of vermont that are supposed to help with insomnia. i was really looking forwards to having them during the exam period, but it looks like that's not going to happen now, which means another trip to the hippie supermarket is in order... *sigh*

i also ordered a beautiful sleep mask from cris notti:

at this point i will do anything to help myself get to sleep. i'm well aware that i can't be on ambien forever, so i'm hoping a quadruple whammy of melatonin/tryptophan/sleep mask/homeopathic essential oils patch might do the trick. although i DID take a nap today on my own, without any drugs, but that's probably because jeremy was rubbing my feet... :p calmed me right down!

also entertaining is my list of recommendations on amazon, which includes homeopathic insomnia medication, a metallica/slayer/megadeth bluray, the crim. law nutshell, and a set of fit and fresh tupperware. i think that pretty much sums up my life.

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woohoo!

paper is in. it was crap, but it has been turned in and it is DONE.

so. yesterday was last law school class EVER. now i'm done completely with 2 of 5 classes, so 3 finals and i'm graduating! WHEEEEEEEEEEEE.

and now i'm vegging on the couch while my very handsome boyfriend makes dinner, i got my anniversary present last night (a little early, but still) - and it is GORGEOUS, and i have some lindemann's raspberry beer. life is pretty good right now :)

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oh em gee

my paper is still not done, and i'm about to tear my hair out. i am having a really hard time finishing it because the subject is such a huge one.

fail.

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things i have done today...

-go to the apple store to get my computer checked out (the fan had been running REALLY loudly and it turned out that the anti-virus software my school forced us to install, sophos, was taking up almost 30 percent of the computer's efforts, even when the computer was doing nothing else. SINCE we removed it, it hasn't been loud AT ALL. weird.)
-pop in victoria's secret to use my angels rewards card and the $10 gift certificate i was sent in the mail when they forgot to include an extra secret rewards card in my order! got some bronze shimmer body powder:

and some body by victoria "the hand cream". weird name, no idea. but best hand cream ever, imho:

love that stuff. for serious, it is amazing. also on my list of things i've done...
-pop by walmart with susie to get a card for my 3 yr. anniversary with j (!!!!!!!!!)
-eat a boatload of cheese
-make brownies for j. for this weekend
-pick up some more tea tree oil pads from trader joe's (another AMAZING product - one of my absolute favorites of all time)
-one load of laundry (more to come, i hope)

AND... things i have not done...
MY PAPER. fudge. better get back to it if i hope to finish it by the time i leave for j's tomorrowwwwwww. i feel like i've accomplished so much but when it comes down to it, i haven't done one of the most important things! screw it, THE most important thing.

crunch time

i am SO tired and trying hard to finish this paper by thursday morning. it might mean pulling an all nighter tonight so i can sleep really well tomorrow before i drive down to nc, but it'll get done. i'm serving as a juror for my friend david's law skills trial at 2 today, and i had class this morning, so i haven't been very productive. last night i was a waste of space because there's something going on with my eye. i think i may have scratched my cornea yesterday morning, but luckily i have some antibiotic eye ointment left over from cambridge 2 years ago... it's still good and i figured if i did scratch my cornea i would get prescribed antibiotics anyway, so why not use what i already have? it's feeling better today so i hope it's okay...

in other news, wearing cute wedge heels that i bought the other day. i weatherproofed them over the weekend, so i hope i'm able to keep them clean. i don't usually wear wedges either, but these were a steal at payless and seem to be working pretty well so far. i have a little bit of rubbing on my big toe on one foot but otherwise they're pretty comfy. check 'em out:

i should probably go back to paper writing. i need to keep an eye on my stress eating, i was disappointed this morning when i weighed in at 1.3 lbs more than 2 days ago. i know a 2lb fluctuation day to day is fine, but i was enjoying seeing the number get a little lower every day!

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this is soooooo boring and forever-taking (archer)

still (not) working on my paper... and watching episodes of archer on hulu. i love that show :) AND i slept for a whole 5 hours without taking my ambien! baby steps, i guess!

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current obsession.

i've posted 3x already today so i want to keep this super short, but for the record, i love emi-jay hair ties. The company was founded by 2 teenagers from L.A. who were on the hunt for the perfect ponytail holder, and they have expanded exponentially! They donate proceeds to Locks of Love, and I'm a huge fan. They don't look tacky on my wrist, and truly don't leave a hair tie bump in my hair. winning.

sometimes i wonder how bear grylls is still alive. i've been playing man vs. wild in the background while doing work for the past few days and have noticed his propensity to do backflips whenever jumping into anything, including a (MAX!!) 2 ft. jump from his raft to a river. seriously not necessary. i know he's broken his shoulder, but his neck is still intact *somehow*.

also - the episode where he gave himself an enema made me throw up in my mouth a little. okay, a lot. i told sus the other day that watching this show is a great diet, because i never want to eat afterwards. vom. vommmmmm. (and it is apparently working b/c i lost 1.5 in the past 2 days... so i guess i win?)

i'm definitely procrastinating right now. can you tell?

ughhhh.

i have been trying to troubleshoot producteev for almost 24 hours and can't get it to put tasks on my calendar that i message via gchat. it gets the message but then it doesn't add it to my calendar. frustrating.

also frustrating - apologizing for things that you didn't do. ew.

typical saturday

spent many hours at susie's yesterday, watching netflix and sort of doing work. i made the fantastic head start of 2 paragraphs on my 20 page paper that's due friday, but c'est la vie. we had fun, and that's what counts. last year i wrote a 20 page paper in 16 hours, so i think i might be able to handle getting this one done on time, esp. bc it's on prosecutorial misconduct, something i feel i know all too much about.

in other news...

so this little beauty is my anniversary present from j. i usually pride myself on not being a girlfriend that obsesses over expensive presents.......... but i love this so much! i think it is super simple and very beautiful :) and i think it will mean more to me than other trinkets or things like that. i'd rather have something small and meaningful than something big that i don't really want.

anyyyyway. i'm planning on staying in bed for a while today. i had a migraine last night and am up earlier than i really wanted to be. i love my ambien but i sometimes wish it would last a few hours longer :p

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happiness hit her like a bullet in the head

okay. so. susie is trying to get me to blog again and while i have made a few guest posts over at HRs 4 All and will continue to do so, i thought it might be worth trying to revive my old blog as well. i'll try to keep things light and happy, but tbh i'm feeling pretty panicky about the whole graduating in less than a month and don't have a job yet deal... on the bright side, law school is *almost* over, and i don't think i've lost too much of myself in the process.

recently i was given a prescription for zoloft and another for ambien, because i've been sad and listless lately, and also have been having problems sleeping. i'm not usually one to promote regular drug use, but oh. my. goodness. i feel like a real person again, and my boyfriend is so much happier to see me and talk to me now that i am not a miserable waste of life whenever we talk (hah). i am also enjoying not being a miserable waste of life too... :) law school is miserable enough as is without having to deal with chemical imbalances and depression!

i have also been learning to ask for help when i need it and take advantage of friends who offer to listen or cheer me up. i'm very lucky to have supportive friends and an amazing boyfriend who really gets me and brings out the best in me.

okay. i'm being sappy, so i think i'm cutting myself off. but here's something oddly inspiring that i read yesterday. i probably can't legally endorse vigilantism, but this is pretty impressive nevertheless.

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