welcome, i suppose?

here's my blog... dr. d seems to think i'd make a great professional blogger and i twitter with such frequency that i thought perhaps it'd be worth a try.

i suppose the custom is to tell you a little about myself... there's not much to tell, really. i'm a 22 y/o soon-to-be 1st year law student, self-proclaimed shoe addict, and someone whose brain works a little too hard for her own good. i constantly think about EVERYTHING, and lately EVERYTHING has been a little something like my boy + moving to school + shopping (always shopping). right now i'm working as the office coordinator for an environmental consulting firm, which involves lots of filing - and consequently, lots of time to think. sometimes i feel like i start off the day as a full tower of jenga blocks and by the end of the day i've spent so much time taking pieces out and examining them that just a little nudge will topple the whole thing. or a pile of pick-up-sticks, but that metaphor was a little too difficult to think about while trying to pay attention to american dad.

22 is probably too young to be feeling like a clock is ticking, but ticking it is. i've spent so much of my life counting down to things - when i was dating rick, i spent 3 years counting down to visits to pgh, his visits to my house, the weekends. i counted down to my 21st birthday. we all had a countdown to aphi's installation, to our graduation, to indiana jones, to batman, to the last day of classes, to finals, to summer... my life has just been full of countdowns. and now i'm finally at a place in my life where i want time to slow down or stop completely and my brain is just ticking away, counting down to the end of summer, to moving to law school, to seeing j... and i am at once terrified and exhilarated. i guess a little bit of a back story is in order... i'm obsessing a little right now because i've been dating a guy for the last 3 months and he is WONDERFUL but we'd agreed to see each other for the summer and then reassess our relationship before i move... well i'm moving on the 10th so that reassessment is sneaking up on me. for the first time in my life i know i'm dating the nicest man i've ever met and i would do anything not to lose this... but i'm feeling a little helpless and have been spending a good deal of time obsessing. i'm in limbo with the clock ticking and don't know whether it'll be heaven or hell at the end. it's terrifying.